Wednesday, March 29, 2017

its the fireman's fault.


The day after we had our first date.
My family left for the weekend for Easter with my dads family!
       

One year and three days ago a certain young man asked to date me. I may or may not being using him as a "its his fault" for why this blog has suffered so severely.
  Okay, fine working full time also has had me sidetracked. I thought about time my fellow bloggers met a certain fireman/favorite person of mine. ;)

                   Why? Because.........

                         
One month ago said fireman asked me to be his forever!

So its not that I am making excuses,buuuuut.         
   WHAT A YEAR!

p.s. when a guy says you're going hiking and then out to eat, but some dressed in a polo something is amiss.

p.s.s. Don't drink 2 cups of coffee and a monster before being proposed too! 

 Calling close friends.


          I am really hoping to document and post about this special season in our lives and write our love story. It wasn't speaks and fireworks, it was a story penned by God in His perfect timing.
 I have honestly enjoyed reading how God wrote other peoples love story's, so hoping to have that on the blog by the end of the year (just so I don't know to get it done by that deadline.) ;) !





Saturday, January 7, 2017

to hope, to yearn, to dream

             
                     The Christmas season and New Years always fills me with awe and wonder.
Everyone is smiles, hopeful, and goal orientated. I have been reflecting more on hope and aspirations of late. I recently attended a basketball game and was observing a little 3-4 year old boy bouncing his basketball in between games. He kept throwing it into the air at the hoop daunting several feet above and there was no way he was EVER going to get it in, he just didn't have the muscle, skill, or height. But he kept enthusiastically trying. I knew one day as he grew, practiced and still aimed to accomplish this task he surely will do it. I thought about life, just in general and how often we run out of enthusiasm and stop trying, stop hoping, dreaming and aspiring. Time. Timing is everything. There is a reason for the verse (Eccl.3:1-8) 'For everything there is a season' God knew it *duh*.
 We may not always 'know' the season for a task in which it will be accomplished, but we can train, prepare and aspire. 
 This brings me to the subject of prayer. I have seen prayers, huge 'impossible' prayers, answered. Did they take days, weeks, or months?!
 No,as a matter fact one big prayer took a 2-3 years. It was answered in God's timing. 
Was it always done with perfect consistency with audacity on my part? 
Nope,but I kept chugging along and it would start to be come apart of my daily prayer, but because I knew the promises of the word it was done with hope and faith.
In His timing and in His way, I only need faith to move the mountian.
 God is faithful, good and just. He knows the desires of my heart and the plan for His children. 
God doesn't always answer and do life according to what I have in my mind, or when I would want. But He gives me peace and assurance while in the midst of it all.

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This beginning year. Before you have a chance to get down out, write out small weekly or monthly goals to accomplish and then only a couple yearly goals to accomplish.
Prayer over them, seek after Christ.
Boldly pursue your goals as God leads and opens doors.

They could be the small ones like clean and organize apart of the house/room this month.
Or as big as job change, the typical get healthy lose weight/get in shape goal (always a good one), or even launch an idea as a business this year...etc...
God doesn't give our hearts desires without cause, but ALWAYS pray and seek God first.
Heart checks and pure intent/motive are always important.
God cares about the little things too.
I feel like people tend to lean toward God only caring about important big things, but that isn't true.

I get excited to know that He cares. He cares about my dreams, the silly and aspirational ones.
He cares about my fears. He care about my goals I set. 
He cares about them because He cares about me/you!
Life isn't perfect and we as humans are very obviously not perfect.
So lets flourish into what God intended and aspire to get stuff done!

Monday, January 2, 2017

twenty seventeen // flourish



Its officially the beginning of a new year. New adventures, sights to be seen, emotions to be felt, tears to fall, strength to be gained. 2016 was such a whirlwind and I can honestly say flew by faster then 2015 did. 2016 a year of fumbling,figuring and being awkward. I honestly felt like an awkward teen (oh, wait I never left that stage). If a movie would be made of 2016 it would be one of those cringe worthy movies, where you want to enter the movie just to help the awful moments severity lessen. But it made for a year of learning what not to do, say or be. 
Like last year and the year before I chose a word/anthem for that year. 
Now for 2017 my word is... 

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       Flourish;
ˈfləriSH/ verb - Grow or develop in a healthy or vigorous way, especially as the result of a particularly favorable environment.
- thrive, bear fruit, blossom, burst forth.

This is my heart. I want to take root in Gods word and have it burst forth in my life. To spring out of me. 
Find an environment (church/friend circle) that is nurturing.
 I want to not just struggle to not fall, but to run. God has called us to bloom. He gives us what we need to do it.
Since moving I have struggled to find a routine with a new job, relationships/friendships, etc..
Just a lot thats new and in a different environment then usual. 
I feel like I joined a circus and the keep giving me new balls to juggle with when I wasn't looking, before I even mastered the basics of juggling. 
I was just trying not to drop them, but now that I have them I want to do what they were given to me to do. 
To be juggled with confidence.
I don't want any aspect of my life to simply be, I want it to bloom, to fight to be strong and beautiful.
Things in life are far from perfect and life in general is messy, but meeting God in that mess for Him to show me the beautiful ways to make my imperfections His blooming flower.
Areas that I instead living with a procrastinating and nostalgic attitude towards, I want to take them and challenge myself in it.
In my spiritual life, relationships, photography everything.
Its Christ's I surrendered it to Him.
Have I been giving my all, walking in obedience to His word, praying over areas in my life?!
This is the cry of my soul. I want to encourage and be encouraged. Inspire and be inspired.
I want young adults in/out of church to grow too.
I want to flourish, not simply struggle to be.



Do you have a word?
Or any special goals for 2017?